| You're the first blog I created. Close behind is NuTang and you know what? I am still active on both. NuTang not as much because I'm not able to access it through my mac... which makes me really sad. But Dearest Xanga I can access you. I guess I need to ask Dave why I can't access nutang through mac... I want to. Don't worry xanga... You're never going to be replaced I just want equal access to NuTang as well. rawr... I don't know...
yay... Human Sexuality later
two months this saturday... where to eat?
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| fuck... well... i'm late to my class... cuz i went to the classroom instead of the library... rawr... i totally forgot to check the calendar thing... I really need to start using a planner because I'm starting to realize that I need to plan things... Like tomorrow. I'm planning the whole day tomorrow for kirstin and myself. I would write here what it's going to be but I don't think I should yet.. Even though I know that she's not going to see this... I guess I can say.. LOL because in order for her to reach this she has to either ask me or go to my facebook page. so since she never asks me or has a facebook account I'll just talk about it. [oh by the way. I'm sitting outside the classroom i'm supposed to be in. and i just saw two of my classmates walk into that room lol fuuckk] i'm planning on taking her around downtown. well because I like cities. Downtown is really cool in general even though it's a low scale place compared to san fran. san fran is a different story on its own. then after that i think mt. soledad? i'm not sure yet. then lunch i'm thinking sushi. then we're going to watch a movie... i really want to watch the sunset with her at sunset cliffs though. and tonight the sunset was awesome because of the clouds. it was a pink and orange one. I hope tomorrow it's going to be pink and purple with a shade of blue. those are my favorite sunsets. rawr.. i hope things go well tomorrow... and also on saturday... because she's the one planning that. damn... i wonder how camille is going to be able to use my car tomorrow... seriously. i kind of wish that i didn't agree with that... fuck... i don't know what to do now. |
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| my head swims
and
my heart is pounding harder and faster
than the music i'm listening to.
my bastard heart is leading the way
and this time I know that it's in the right direction.
I want to fall..
fall into the shear darkness of my jaded emotions
and heal.
rawr who am i kidding... i'm falling in love =]]
every minute that i spend with her i feel my heart grow heavy with feelings and emotions for her.
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| i can't sleep... i tried everything.. and nothing is helping... >.< ::cries:: i think it's because i'm nervous and excited... lol i'm going to hang out with this one girl. ahh i don't know why i'm freaking out like this. it's kind of funny to me in fact. rawr
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| I was trying to write a story but I honestly just feel like talking... but there's no one really to talk to so i'll just type/talk here =]] Mae I know that you're pretty much the only person who reads this anymore... well maybe marisol and marlyn too but haha i don't know. Anyways Hi guys =]] It's been a while since we've all seen each other and another year has gone by. Last time I saw Mae and Marisol was at Chula Vista Mall in front of Jamba juice and we all promised each other to go eat sushi together. That was almost a year now... Time flys doesn't it? Recently I've been working a lot but I guess that's okay cuz I'm bringing in the money. I just need to save it. And that is a problem for me because I like to buy things... >.< and it's funny though because when I spend money I don't think that I really am spending a lot because I usually do it little at a time. mostly on like food and things like that stuff that's under 20 dollars. I think you know what I mean. And then after a week or a few days of doing that it's like "What the fuck... Where'd all my money go??" Damn I hate that feeling after... cuz the thing I was trying to save for I can't get and have to wait again... >.< Man if I actually saved my money when I was supposed to I'd have somethings that I promised myself that I would get... For example Freeline skates. I really want those... But they're like 130+ online... they were supposed to be my birthday present to myself. I guess later on then... But for Christmas/Birthday this year I think upgraded my present =]] I'm going to San Francisco/Petaluma to watch the Wonderful Tsunami Bomb perform at a benefit concert for their ex-member Liz. It's going to be amazing. I'm bringing some of my friends. Danny, Camille, and Jayd. Kliulai lives up there so yea. lol she's going to be in the area already. I find it kind of funny that Jayd is going... Cuz when I asked her to hang out with me to go to a show in Escondido it was to see The Action Design. hahaha And The Action Design is going to be playing there because that's the band that Agent M [Emily] is currently in. haha So I know that jayd knows some of their songs. But I don't know what she did with the CD I gave her and got signed for her. Jayd didn't go and she kind of missed out but oh well... blame the food poisoning she got. if she had it... I don't know No bad vibes =]]
I hope your christmas went well. =]]
I don't know what else to write.. lol I'm just chillin here listening to some music.. some Trance and and a bit of Hardcore/happy hardcore. Right now I just put on Adam von Volterock's Tribute to Trance. It's like 80 minutes long but it's my favorite mix that I've come across. I play it all the time. Especially when I'm driving. It's just an amazing mix. I don't know if I'll ever find a mix this relaxing and upbeat ever. Here's a link just if you're interested in taking a listen =]] http://www.music.volterock.com/
If you don't really listen to any EDM at all this will change your mind. I thought I made up my decision about EDM and all that but once these sweet beats hit my ears I was sold all over again.
I'm actually quite tired right now... and I feel like I can go to sleep. But my mind wants to run around like the little kids I was surrounded by earlier at Danny's party. Don't Do Drugs Kids =]]
I realized just now that I have problems taking my ideas or visions and putting it on paper or typing it out... Like I can see all the images and everything in my head but when I try to explain them I can't. I don't think that's a writers block or anything.... I don't know what it's called... Creative juice blockage?? lol I don't know... But it's not blocking my creativity.. It's all in my head.. I just can't get it out. I want to share my visions and ideas with people... I don't know but I have a feeling that I'm missing something that I really need that will help me out with that problem... I hope that I find it soon. It's what does Laurell K Hamilton call it... a Muse... I need to find my muse. or i don't know.. lol..
I think this is all for now I want to write something else now =]]
I hope you all enjoyed your new years as much as I have.
Happy New Years to All!!!
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